SCANDALICIOUS!!!

Have ya ever been in a reaaaaaaaalllly great scandal??
I mean, a reeaaaaaallly reallllly good scandal?



I have.
That's what I called SCANDALICIOUS. A good and delicious scandal.
Why scandal?
'coz maybe you did it with the wrong people...people with lovers.
'coz maybe you will only have it once in a lifetime...


Don't push yourself too hard, to repeat the same scandal
It will never be as interesting as the first one...
It may only end in pain, or bore...
Do it just once, then leave it. It will last as a good memory.
Have A Hard Rockin' Scandal!!

...more things to ponder

D'ya ever made a relationship with people, just because you were friends with the friends of their friend's friend?
Some people called it NETWORKING.
My a** [Firly taught me this kinda swear], for me it's just a 'SEASONAL networking'!


Let's put it this way.
There're things in this life called EX-friends. There's no such thing like EX-mom, or EX-dad, but -for me- there will always be EX-friend, no matter how they will exist in our life.
So...if EX-friends do exist, then why do we have to maintain the friends of their friend's friend?
Face the fact that people do forget the names of their close relatives, so why bother? Maybe you're no longer exist, even in their phone book.

Then,
bump them out your memory slot! Just erase those unimportant list. Make new seasonal networking, and let new names be in that occupied slot.


I did.
I just erased 2 names, and they're no longer in my memory.

have ya ever considered yourself a BITCH?

..YES!
Bump this question in your mind! Have ya ever considered yourself a BITCH?
Not literally, darling.
I mean those bitchy things, without being a real bitch.


I DID, and I guess it was ruuuuude...
It's kinda guilty pleasure for me... I like doing it, over and over again.
I love torching people -certain people, I assume- and getting their respons in returns. Though sometimes I felt guilty afterwards, but it was fun.
In fact, it is STILL fun..

Don't feel sorry, if you're ever trapped in this kinda feeling.
There's gotta be a reason why we did that.
My good friend once told me, everything happened for a reason...a good reason.
And there's gotta be good reason why we did that.
Maybe they had torn us apart once,
Maybe they were never there, just when we needed them most
Maybe they did not give a damn about us
Maybe they had disappointed us over, and over, and over, and over again,
Maybe we just had it enuff...

....and maybe, it's about time to be a bitch,
do some bitchy things, to the real bitches themselves...

...finally, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do

It's been a while...
Well, let me share things that happened these last 3 days.

The biggest thing came on Wednesday, when I finally put an end in this long and winding journey. Dunno how I actually feel...it is [still] undescribable.

It's no one's loss. I still can't believe I did that.
Like they said, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do... and this is what I should do right now.

Well, at least I still have 4 final weeks to decide, which of these experiences should have 'happily ever after' endings...



4 final weeks, counting down...

...something to ponder

There was a simple conversation I had with my friends last Saturday... simple,silly,but quite botherin'...at least for me.

Kay,let's put it this way...
Have ya ever send someone a blank message? Thru your cell phone,of course...


I did.

At first I think I did it with no particular reason.
But,that conversation made me think.
There's gotta be a reason why someone sends a blank message.



And the reason was pretty simple...
It's a simple 'MISS YOU' message,but for some reasons,no words are included.
Maybe because we can't find the right words to express how we feel...
Maybe because we're bad with words...
Maybe because we've tried to spit those words,but it never went rite
Maybe because we're angry,but we're dying to say we miss them...
Maybe because we just cannot tell them how we really feel...
Maybe...
and maybe


You know you're own reason. I finally found mine...
So,have ya ever send someone a blank message?
maybe,today is your time to send one...

"Never Again"...on the down [Justin Timberlake]

This is stupid...
Believing in the power of a song's lyric is stupid.
However, some songs have great lyrics, which accidentally has the same stories like us.
And on one of the down, this next thing fits mine...

"Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love...IT'S BLIND
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
......was apologize..."

"You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me...
And now I'm half the man
that I used to be when it was you and me,
you didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend,
And you'll never get to love me...again"

"Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine...
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
and all you had to do
was apologize......and mean it"

"But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
that I used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me....."

"It's like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
...BUT IT'S TOO LATE, IT'S OVER NOW......"

"..You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
that I used to be when it was you and me,
you didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

..........AGAIN..."
[Justin Timberlake]